I'm Back....

Let me bring the one person who actually reads this blog up to speed: the other guy left, things became uncomplicated from him, and things seemed to be looking up. Until it was time for me date the girl of my dreams. Her parents did not condone it, and she was afraid to love again after what happened with "he who shall not be named". So finally after another 2 months of courting her, she was ready to date me, and even her parents were warming up to the idea. Then all of a sudden, she told me they were against the idea, and she didn't feel love towards me, no fear, but no love. I thought this might be because she finally is able to trust me and accept being with me, that's why she didn't feel the fear anymore. But no. I'm not that lucky, mind you this ironically occurred on Friday the 13th. She doesn't see it that way, and she is not going to date anyone in the near future because she really isn't ready to. She said she wants me to remain friends with her, but with all the romantic moments we spent together, all the love notes, all the emotional pain I've endured, I don't know if it will be fully possible for me to act the same as before around her. So what next? No idea, but for now I'm heartbroken and I am definitely not going in to love again for the foreseeable future. She meant and still means the world to me, and I will not settle for anyone other than her. I just hope she sees the error she made in this case, and comes back to me someday. Maybe as a birthday present (December). I will be updating this blog more often now, but probably not every day. Thanks for reading.