Is it me?

Still not feeling great in the way of emotions. I can't believe I'm this depressed at Christmas time. And all because of one situation, one thought burned into my memory. And no matter how hard I try, it won't go away. Anyway, here is a song from one of my favorite games that exemplifies how I feel right now:

It's going.

Well today certainly had its ups and downs. I did pretty well as Santa, and me and my friends had a little party at the end of the school day. Also, I spent some with my favorite girl during the Christmas talent show. Mostly I was depressed though, for obvious reasons that you viewers may or may not understand. Anyway she's coming over next week as well as another one of my good friends so that we can just hang out and maybe make a video for YouTube. Not much to report since this morning. Just lonely. I've given myself the nickname "The Lone Wanderer", because it definitely fits me. I help people with their problems as best as I can, and then I'm disregarded and forgotten. I then wander to my next calling, just as the wind carries a leaf. Deep, I know. Well that's all for now, I'll make another post tomorrow, which is incidentally Christmas Eve. See ya.

Christmas stuff.

Well today I dressed up like Santa (currently still), and brought stuff for my friends to snack on after all our classes are done. Just some pringles and snapple to celebrate with. And for once the principal didn't ask someone to take off the costume, because he usually does. Anyway, now is a good time to tell you what my mornings are like. I wake up, go to take a shower, and about halfway through every morning, I either get very nauseous or throw up. I know, gruesome right? Well that's how I feel right now, and the nearest bathroom is one floor up. Ugh. Well I guess that's it for now. I'll post later or tomorrow.

Also this.

So yeah, my life isn't great right now. I'll deal with it, just like I always do. I was pretty damn depressed over some things I read on another blog that someone I know owns, but I've decided that I won't give up what I'm trying to do and I'll give it another go. For at least the rest of the school year. And I'm not being melodramatic, the stuff I read would have been enough to have anyone in my position to commit suicide. Not that I will. But you know what they say "Time waits for none". Sorry, I just had to do that. But it's true. If time won't slow down for me to let me think, then I'll have to think faster and come up with solutions before its too late. Well that's enough for now. I will see (or rather type) you all later.

Ah. My first blog.

Well now that I have a blog, I guess it's time to explain what's been going on in my life. It sucks by the way. I've got terrible grades, I am the nerdiest guy in school that can bench press 270 lbs, and the girl of my dreams doesn't like me the way I wish she would. I'll start with the grades. I have an IQ of 162, which is certifiably genius status. Yet, for some reason (the reason being I'm lazy AND preoccupied with something), I have really bad grades and I may have trouble passing for the year. Well that sucks. Next is how fucking nerdy I am. I am one of the biggest nerds on the east coast, and I hang out with the nerds (and one non-nerd). Of course I'm smart enough to know how to act around the "cool" students, but the fact is they are just too stupid for me to talk to. Case closed. Lastly, but certainly not least, is the girl I want to be more than friends with someday (she is the non-nerd). I've told her how I feel about her, I've treated her as highly as I can possibly manage, and yet she eludes me. She's told me she doesn't like me that way, and I understand that. But come on. At least give me a chance.

Well that about sums it up for now. I'll post some more and work on the blog later. For now, I shall retire to my bed for a long night of sorrowful sleep. See ya later.